Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Self-limiting thoughs = uninvited guests

I know what they are. I recognize them when I'm having them. And yet, I can't seem to quiet them. Even when someone I like and respect tells me they aren't true - I agree...and then I go right ahead and knuckle-under to the voices in my head again!

I'm talking about the voice that was whispering tonight - 'Wow, did you just really change the subject from that girl's PHD aspirations to your pre-teen parenting woes? - Smoooth move - NOT!".

Then it said, "This lady wants to mingle and you have been holding her captive for far too long simply because you don't see anyone else you know to talk to - let her go!"

And then, get this: It had the nerve to say, "She's looking right at your name tag and still doesn't have a clue who you are - yes Lisa, you are just THAT interesting".

I bailed out of the hell I called "stepping outside my comfort zone" shortly after that little gem. Besides, it was whispering at me all day that if I can't even make one person a little bit happy, how on earth am I going to get my kids through puberty/become a successful writer/be financially secure, etc etc etc...

My response: "OH Really! Who are you? And why are you such a downer?!" I've determined that I've got to find out and silence this dark menace once and for all...maybe after my 367th duel-to the death with the PMS monster...or is that just a lame excuse, put there AGAIN by those voices in my head? They are crafty devils I tell you!